What if I gave everything?

S - What if I gave everything - Casting Crowns

All my life I longed to be a hero
My sword raised high, running to the battle

I was going to take giants down
Be a man you would write about

Deep in my chest is the heart of a warrior

So why am I still standing here
Why am I still holding back from You

I hear You call me out into deeper waters
But I settle on the shallow end

So why am I still standing here

So afraid what it might cost to follow You
I’d walk by faith if I could get these feet to move

But I don’t want to live that way
I don’t want to look back someday

On a life that never stepped across the line

So why am I still standing here
Why am I still holding back from You

You’ve given me a faith that can move a mountain

But I’m still playing in the sand

Building little kingdoms that’ll never stand

I hear You call me out into deeper waters
But I settle on the shallow end

I’m so tired of standing here
What if I gave everything to You

What if I gave everything
What if I stopped holding back from You

Starting now I’m stepping out onto deeper waters

What if I gave everything
What if I stopped holding back from You

Starting now I’m stepping out onto deeper waters

I want to see some mountains move

Ready to give everything

Say goodbye to standing here

O -  This Casting Crowns song spoke to me this morning.  It reminded me of the hero's of legendary faith in the bible like David, Moses, Abraham, Joshua,  Paul - who stepped out boldly and served God.   I can imagine they went through a similar conversation with God as these lyrics represent.   As they were being prepared to serve a part in God's plan for His people, they certainly faced self doubt, self deception, and at times even false sense of self worth. 

A - The application for me is the title of the song.  What if I gave everything.  I find myself asking myself this question because I know I have given my heart to Jesus,  but the question still remains why am I holding back all of me.  I know the answer to that question lies in an underlying fear of losing other parts of me that I have built up without God's help necessarily.   The treasures of security in my job and paycheck from the Navy,  the Castle of my house in Hawaii,  the entitlement of my position as Operations officer at a large Naval Shipyard.   The application remains to lay it all down before the Lord as an offering. None of what I have achieved has come from me but rather through the gifts and talents God has gifted me with, the provision He has provided, and the grace over my mistakes and missteps.  

P - Dear Heavenly Father, I come this morning humbled by what you have done in my life, how you are able to use all of me, in all my weaknesses for your purpose.  My prayer is that you would help me lay it all down before you and give you everything,  all of me and all I have, for all of you.  I pray all this in Jesus Christ name, Amen.